"I mean, I'm sick of meaning"
"I just want to hold you"

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About

🦑Hamish ^{(Ham, Mish, Ham Sandwhich, and other variations are also fun)}
🦑27 ^{(June 19, 1997)}
🦑He / Him
🦑White ^{(gentile and non latino)}
🦑USAmerican Settler
🦑Transgender Man
🦑Bisexual
🦑Neurodivergent & Mentally Ill
🦑Member of a DID System
🦑Communist
🦑Poet
🦑Artist

Do Not Follow

If you are in this category interacting with my posts or shooting an informative message is fine, but please do not follow.🦑Minors ^{(I respect you, but my blog is not for you and I'd like that boundary to be respected. If you follow, I will softblock. If you interact with an NSFW post I will hardblock. If there is no age in your blog my assumption will be that you are a minor. I have had my blog for a long time, no minor is grandfathered in.)}
🦑Blogs which exclusively post porn or kink content. ^{(occasional or even frequent is fine if you post other things just as or more regularly.)}

Do Not Interact

I'm really only going to add to this DNI as I have problems in that area, this isn't, nor do I want it to be, a comprehensive list of my stances. If you see an acronym or word that you don't recognize it almost certainly doesn't apply to you.🦑transphobes, transmisogynists, TERFs, radfems, TEHMs, febfems, and gender critical
🦑people who use the terms transandrophobia, antimasculism, transmisandry, and misandry
🦑anyone with a thinspo / proana / weight loss blog, or anyone with their past / current / or goal weight in their blog
🦑people who consciously support the legitimization of and continued existance of settler-colonial states such as the USA, Canada, Australia, and Israel

Extended Sexuality, Gender & Pronouns

Pronouns

I find the topic of pronouns, including neo-pronouns, and self-determination to be fascinating. I am in no way offended if you exclusively want to use "He / Him" pronouns for me, but if you want to get a little funky and playful with language these other three sets of pronouns are one I find personally fun and affirming in their own right! Thanks!🦑He / Him / His / Himself ^{(standard set)}
🦑Hy / Hymn / Hys / Hymnself ^{(blasphemy set)}
🦑Bro / Bro / Bros / Broself ^{(overcompensating set)}
🦑'Ey / 'Em / 'Eir / 'Emself ^{(well-meaning southern Appalachian relative pronouncing they/them set)}Please never use "She / Her" for me and please reserve "They / Them" only for when you are referring to me in the context of collectives (such as me and my system, or me and my partner.) Because my pronouns are so clear in my bio and my carrd I will expect you to use my pronouns and not default to "They / Them" in online contexts.

Gender

🦑I am functionally a trans man in the sense that I identify myself to others as male, I want to be seen and treated by others as male, and in the sense that my gendered experiences at this point largely align with those who call themselves trans men.
🦑That being said, when I am alone and unconcerned with how others perceive me, I do connect with the concept of being nonbinary. In one sense I am internally both male and female out of both opulence and also a nuanced experience that my transness and understanding of it offers me. In another sense I am internally unable to be either male or female due the disconnection my transness, sexuality, neurodivergence, and trauma has imposed on me in the ability to identify with others in multiple aspects, not limited to, but including gender.
🦑I'm also just a man.
🦑I am unable to transition medically due to medical issues, but that doesn't indicate a lack of dysphoria or desire to pursue testosterone and gender affirming surgery. In fact, it is quite the opposite.

Sexual & Relational Orientations

🦑Bisexual ^{(I am indicating a draw towards all genders.})
🦑T4T ^{(In preference and practice but I'm technically "open to cis people".})
🦑Polyamorous
🦑Partnered
🦑Submissive

Brain and Body

Some of these are professionally diagnosed, others are professionally recognized, others come from years work of personal research and are self-diagnosed. I'm honestly not going to tell you which of these fit in which category, and that is not a challenge to guess either. Self diagnosis is a nuanced and complex issue not helped by our flawed psychiatric model, medical institutions, and material realities, that I am therefore neither for nor against as a practice.

Disorders (Mental)

🦑A.D.H.D. (type 1: inattentive) ^{(Attention Deficit Hyperactive Disoder)}
🦑A.S.D. ^{(Autism Spectrum Disorder)}
🦑M.D.D. ^{(Major Depressive Disorder)}
🦑G.A.D. ^{(Generalized Anxiety Disoder)}
🦑P.T.S.D. ^{(Post Traumatic Stress Disorder)}
🦑O.C.D. ^{(Obsessive Compulsive Disorder)}
🦑D.I.D. ^{(Dissociative Identity Disorder)}

Disorders (Physical)

🦑Endometriosis
🦑Hypermobility Syndrome

Politics

Labels

🦑generally Leftist
🦑definitely Communist
🦑Wobblie
🦑probably Anarchist
🦑possibly Egoist
🦑possibly Utilitarian
🦑definitely Feminist
🦑possibly a Marxist Feminist
🦑possibly an Anarcho-Feminist

Movements and Action I Try to Support

🦑Communist / Leftist / Anarchist
🦑Feminist / Womanist
🦑Intersectionality
🦑Pro-Bodily Autonomy
🦑Anti-Capitalist
🦑Decolonization / Anti-Colonial
🦑Land Back
🦑Pro Palestinian / Free Palestine
🦑Anti-Racist
🦑Black Lives Matter
🦑Police Abolition / Anti-Cop
🦑Prison Abolition
🦑Trans and Sexual Liberation
🦑Disability Advocacy

Religion

🦑At this point in my life it frees me to interact with religion without an emphasis on personal belief. Because I struggle with self-doubt and intrusive thoughts, I believe religion should say more about the framework through which you view the world, the practices you choose to engage in, and how you engage with and identify within the context of varying religious communities, than whether or not you have "faith" or "belief" moment to moment.
🦑This is not to say that I practice things which I don't believe in, but rather that belief as a pre-requisite to partake in that religion and it's practices is at least in part a Christian construct.
🦑I may be an atheist, I may not be; the distinction doesn't matter to me.
🦑(This does not mean that I do not understand or disagree with the concept of closed practices.)
🦑I was raised Christian, and therefore it will always impact my world views and framework whether I like it or not. I was very religious and Christian most of my life. That being said, I do not interact with the world as a praciticing Christian today.
🦑I am an "exvangelical" / "deconstructor", or more blatantly, a "non-believer".
🦑I have substantial interest in Christianity's history, mythology, and theology, but I myself am opposed to evangelicalism as a concept and practice.
🦑I am not anti-theist.
🦑I am a casual practitioner of Witchcraft and Hellenistic Paganism.
🦑I largely focus my worship and veneration towards Dionysos and Proteus.
🦑I do not identify with the Wiccan practice.

Personality

I have decided not to include the Meyer's-Brigg's Type Indicator model in this list due to my personal discomfort with it's partial roots in eugenics.

I Identify Fully With This

🦑5w4 SX subtype ^(Enneagram)

I Identify Somewhat With This

🦑Gemini Sun, Sagittarius Moon, Aries Rising ^{(Western Zodiac)}
🦑Fire Ox ^{(Chinese Zodiac)}
🦑Phlegmatic ^{(The Four Temperments)}

Interests

Science

🦑Paleontology / Natural History
🦑Marine Biology
🦑Zoological Taxonomy

Subcultures

This doesn't necessarily mean I am part of all of these subcultures I just like to research and observe.
🦑Punk
🦑Stoner
🦑Drag ^{(all forms of drag but especially drag kings)}
🦑Furries
🦑Otherkin ^{(and related communities)}
🦑Redneck ^{(moreso the history than modern connotations)}
🦑B.D.S.M. ^{(and other sexual subcultures)}

Broad Engagement in Media

🦑Monsters
🦑Cryptids
🦑Speculative Evolution
🦑Mythology ^{(largely Christian, Hellenistic, and Babylonian mythology)}
🦑Tarot
🦑Art
🦑Film
🦑Comics
🦑Poetry
🦑Media Analysis ^{(including but not limited to criticism)}
🦑"Classics" / "Classical Studies"

Music Genres

I mean, I already said I'm into taxonomy, so it'd be easier to list genres that capture my interests than the individual artists within them.
🦑Disco
🦑Electonic
🦑Dungeon Synth
🦑Psychedelic
🦑"Moog Music"
🦑Electro-Funk
🦑Psychedelic-Funk
🦑Punk
🦑New Wave
🦑Work Songs
🦑American Folk Music
🦑Protest Folk
🦑Folk Blues
🦑Folk Punk
🦑Freak Folk
🦑Afrobeat / Afrofunk
🦑Jazz
🦑Jazz Noir
🦑Ethio-Jazz
🦑Tizita / Tezeta

Books (Novels & Epic Poems)

🦑"All Tomorrows" By C. M. Kosemen
🦑"The Illustrated Man" by Ray Bradburry
🦑"The Last Unicorn" by Peter S. Beagle
🦑"At the Mountains of Madness" by H. P. Lovecraft
🦑"The Hobbit" by J. R. R. Tolkien
🦑"Beowulf"
🦑Homer's "The Odyssey"
🦑"Inferno" + "Purgatorio" by Dante Alighieri

Short Stories

🦑"I Have No Mouth and I Must Scream" by Harlan Ellison
🦑"Bloodchild" by Octavia Butler
🦑"The Outsider" by H. P. Lovecraft

Comics

🦑DC Comics ^{(mostly post-crisis pre-52 era, ie; 1986 to 2011)}
🦑"The Question" by Dennis O'Neil
🦑"The New Teen Titans" by Marv Wolfman
🦑various runs of Superman and Superman solo series or elseworlds events even outside of my preferred era for DC
🦑anything having to do with Jimmy Olsen
🦑various Superfam members solo series, mostly Steel and Superboy
🦑"Young Justice" by Todd Dezago
🦑"V for Vendetta" by Alan Moore
🦑"The Moomins" by Tove Jansson

Animanga

🦑Yuri ^{(as a genre)}
🦑"Revolutionary Girl Utena" ^{(the anime, the movie, certain aspects of some manga, but not the main Chiho Saito manga series)}
🦑"Neon Genesis Evangelion" ^{(the anime and the original movie, and sort of the rebuild films, but not the manga.)}
🦑"Soul Eater" ^{(mostly the anime)}
🦑"Blood on the Tracks" by Shūzō Oshimi
🦑"Inside Mari" by Shūzō Oshimi
🦑"Aku No Hana" / "Flowers of Evil" ^{(manga and anime)}
🦑"Devilman" ^{(the original manga, the 1970s OVAs, and "Devilman Lady" in both manga and anime form)}
🦑"Ryuuguuden Palace" / "Castle of the Dragon" by Matsunaga Toyokazu
🦑"Homunculus" by Hideo Yamamoto
🦑"Inuyasha" ^{(both manga and anime)}
🦑"Ultra Heaven" by Keiichi Koike
🦑"Aoi Hana" / "Sweet Blue Flowers" by Takako Shimura
🦑"Girlfriends" by Morinaga Milk
🦑"Oniisama E" / "Dear Brother" ^{(both manga and anime)}
🦑"Wonder Egg Priority"
🦑"Odd Taxi"
🦑"Kaiji: Ultimate Survivor" ^{(anime, not manga)}
🦑Yamaji Ebine ^{(as a mangaka)}
🦑Junji Ito ^{(as a mangaka)}
🦑Satoshi Kon ^{(as a creator)}
🦑Hayao Miyazaki ^{(as a creator)}
🦑Hiroshi Nagahama ^{(as a creator)}

Movies

🦑"L'Inferno" / "Dante's Inferno" (1911)
🦑"Society" (1989)
🦑"Re-Animator" (1985) + "Bride of the Re-Animator" (1990)
🦑"But I'm a Cheerleader" (1999)
🦑"Revolutionary Girl Utena: The Adolescence of Utena" (1999)
🦑"The Last Unicorn" (1982)
🦑"The Shape of Water" (2017)
🦑"Snowpiercer" (2013)
🦑"Parasite" (2019)
🦑"Moonlight" (2016)
🦑"The Lighthouse" (2019)
🦑"The Green Knight" (2021)
🦑"My Neighbor Totoro" (1988)
🦑"Spirited Away" (2001)
🦑"The Secret World of Arrietty" (2010)
🦑"Ponyo" (2008)
🦑"House" (1977)
🦑"Eraserhead" (1977)
🦑"Suspiria" (1977)
🦑"La Planète Sauvage" / "Fantastic Planet" (1973)
🦑"Paterson" (2016)
🦑"Perfect Blue" (1997)
🦑"Paprika" (2006)
🦑"Millennium Actress" (2001)
🦑"12 Angry Men" (1957)
🦑"Everything Everywhere All At Once" (2022)
🦑"The Truman Show" (1998)
🦑"Black Swan" (2010)
🦑"Ex Machina" (2014)
🦑"Lars and the Real Girl" (2007)
🦑"Sorry to Bother You" (2018)
🦑"Brigsby Bear" (2017)
🦑"Good Time" (2017)
🦑"Mädchen in Uniform" / "Girls in Uniform" (1931)
🦑"Basket Case" (1982)
🦑"Evil Dead" (1981) + "Evil Dead II" (1987) + "Army of Darkness" (1992)
🦑"Watership Down" (1978)
🦑"Kong: Skull Island" (2017)
🦑"The Shining" (1980)
🦑"Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 2" (2017)
🦑"The Iron Giant" (1999)
🦑"The Meg" (2018)
🦑"The Babadook" (2014)
🦑"American Psycho" (2000)
🦑"The Thing" (1982)
🦑"They Live" (1988)
🦑"Superman" (1978)
🦑"Time Bandits" (1981)
🦑"Spider-Man 2" (2004)
🦑"Little Shop of Horrors" (1986)
🦑"The Grand Budapest Hotel" (2014)
🦑"Asteroid City" (2023)
🦑"Jason and the Argonauts" (1963)
🦑"Clash of the Titans" (1981)
🦑"The 7th Voyage of Sinbad" (1958)
🦑"Attack of the Puppet People" (1958)
🦑"Superman / Batman: Apocalypse" (2010)
🦑"Napoleon Dynamite" (2004)
🦑"Gentlemen Broncos" (2009)
🦑"Bottoms" (2023)
🦑"The Hunchback of Notre Dame" (1996)
🦑"Tarzan" (1999)
🦑"Love & Saucers" (2017)
🦑"Stranger Than Fiction" (2006)
🦑"Le Chat Du Rabbin" / "The Rabbi's Cat" (2011)

Shows

🦑"Over The Garden Wall
🦑"Adventure Time" + "Adventure Time: Distant Lands" + "Fionna and Cake"

Videogames

🦑"Disco Elysium"
🦑"Pathologic 2"
🦑"I Have No Mouth and I Must Scream"
🦑"Lisa: The Painful"
🦑the "Rusty Lake" room escape series
🦑"The Stanley Parable"
🦑"Undertale" + "Deltarune"
🦑"World of Horror"
🦑"Yume Nikki"
🦑"Silent Hill" + "Silent Hill 2" + "Silent Hill 3" + "Silent Hill 4: The Room"
🦑"Baldur's Gate 3"
🦑"Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim"

Table Top Games

🦑Dungeons and Dragons 5th Addition with Expansion, Homebrew, and Legacy material
🦑Yu-Gi-Oh!
🦑Choose Your Own Adventure

Kin

Okay, so I don't actually identify as otherkin anymore, but as a teenager it was really important to me, at this age I still like to keep lists, and honesty a better shorthand for "wow this silly thing helps me conceptualize the self" hasn't entered the scene yet. So, yeah I don't interact with these characters and media any longer as though I spiritually was or am them, but it's still fun.This is an unholy mishmash of characters I have actively had delusions around at some point and others I just vibe with and like to analyze through a personal lens.